Well, decided that I should try to revive this writing of blog, not for the sake of anything, but hopefully to glorify God. It is not that I haven't had any revelations, but it is just been so much happening, that I can't pen it all down......... In fact, this period of my life is one that I realise that God has "pushed" me to a corner, that there is no where else to turn, but to God alone only. And this being stuck in a corner has challenged me to understand that only God has the way, and only God's way is the best. Only in Him I have to trust, and only in Him I need to run to.
Don't run to the relationships of life, things of the world, career, fame or even ministry for that refuge and strength that you need. Run only unto God; Desire only for God; Serve only to God; and Love because God first love us. What is the cry of your heart today, i don't know about you.........but my cry of my heart, is that I only want God in my life, more than anything else. I want to hear Him, I want to feel His embrace, I want to enjoy His love; nothing else, but just Him alone. Many things in my life suddenly seems to come to "an end"; not as in I've lost everything, but "an end" where I realise that I need to move on; Making that decision and goal right from early 2008, or even end of 2007, to MOVE ON, has stir within my heart that I am not satisfied and I want more of God in my life; I don't want to stay stuck, I don't want to stay the same, I don't want to live the same revelations, I don't want to stay in the corner that I feel I am in, and praying this prayer, has make me made some tough decisions to push myself towards God. It is tough, it is challenging, but knowing that it will help me to Move on, it is all worth it. I don't know if you will understand, but this song below probably demonstrates some of my thoughts......
This is my cry
My one desire
Just to be where You are
Now and forever
It's more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You, Jesus
The lyrics of this song "One Desire" by Joel Houston, has been upon my heart over the last 3 months or so.
How much more can I love? I ask God....... God said to me in His still and quiet voice.........You can love more, if your one devotion is Me. That's it........ I think that speaks everything that I've been asking God. Don't love the things of the world - Just love God, and know that it will be His love that He will pour into us, that we can keep loving others with His love. Any my prayer .......... God help me to love you wholeheartedly - Deut 6:5 "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength."
